For some reason lately I've been having a lot of conversations with people about fic; which fics of ours people like vs. which ones WE like, which ones get recc'd and commented on most, and how that corresponds with our own perception of our writing. And then the other day when I started working on my Idol recs list, I realized I could actually search for a URL and see how many people had tagged that URL and read their notes on it. COOL, right?

As some of you (*cough*wendy*cough*) might know, there is one particular fic of mine that I wrote over two years ago that people STILL comment regularly on. Like, at least a couple times a month, but sometimes I'll get a whole rush of comments on this fic. So I decided to look up the URL, and sure enough, out of all my fics, that one has the most tags.

It's not the fic you think. It's the fucking Manny fic! OF COURSE IT IS. Not Chicagoland. Not any of my other J2 or popslash fics that are actually good pieces of writing with good characterizations. No, it's the ridiculous one about mannies and sex shops and the word 'dildo' a million times.

So, the meme! Your mission: using the delicious "search url" function, find/discuss the following:
1. Your fic with the most tags (easiest if you first do a search of your username to narrow it down)
2. Your fic with the least tags
3. Your favorite fic
4. The fic you wish you'd never posted
5. Best/worst "notes" that delicious people wrote on 3 & 4.

( Manny and the Beast, aka, the Curse of the Dildo Fic That Wouldn't Die. )

recs: american idol is awesome, your argument is invalid

So, many of you know that I've been watching American Idol for several years now. I watched the first season kind of randomly... I was in college at the time so it was more like I caught some episodes and I watched Kelly win. I saw enough to wonder where the Guy Who Isn't Seacrest was when I started watching it again during grad school, which was (I think) S4. Whichever one was the Bo Bice year. I resisted, but my roommates at the time (lecksee and stellaface were determined to pull me out from under my pop-culture rock. And then I met Jacob while visiting dazifudo in Austin that April, and that sort of forced me to watch it, so I could understand his recaps.

Anyway, blah blah, I've been watching for a while. And I've never really gotten that into it. I enjoy it. But I fast forward through the people I don't like and sometimes I leave the room during the judges' comments because they annoy me one way or another. I would say until this season, I was more of a casual watcher. I admit, I did consider going to Idols Live during the Ace/Daughtry/Bo/Constantine season because, I mean... ACE. But then I didn't, because even I am not that lame. Until, apparently, now.

Fucking Lambert. He ruined my cool. I'm even starting to like his version of 'No Boundaries.' Yeah, I'm doomed. With that in mind, have some recs, and share my fate.

Note: most of these are probably already on other recs lists. But I like to actually say something about why I liked a fic and what it's about when I rec something. And I think I can honestly say that most of you who read my fic or my journal regularly will really love these fics, even knowing next to nothing about American Idol.

( american idol 8 fic I think is good that you should read now so I have people to talk to about this. )

Okay so. SO! After last night, I decided that if I could go see the Idols Live tour, I needed to make that happen. And then I managed to find an actually cheap place ticket to Detroit. And then I managed to get the days off to go. So I am going to Detroit at the end of August and seeing the tour with my mom and her boyfriend and my sister, and I am SO FUCKING EXCITED I COULD PUKE!!!

At first my boss was kind of iffy about the idea of me going because that's the first week of classes and the end of the fiscal year. But I guess she decided she could do without me because she said yes. (And honestly, I don't do anything special the first week of classes, and the only special thing I'd do at the end of the fiscal year is order shit from Office Depot, which I can actually do from my mom's house so if they REALLY need me... Anyway, point being, she said yes!

So then, ahaha omg. So then I talked to my mom. And I didn't think she'd want to come to the concert (although she loves Adam) because both her and her boyfriend are handicapped and it's at the Palace of Auburn Hills and blah blah. But she really wanted to go! She had to call and order her tickets from the box office (handicapped tickets) which actually, she got really lucky because she has good seats at the medium price range because of the whole handicapped thing.

I bought my sister's and my tickets through TicketZone, which cost more but I got really good seats! And!! I'm just excited!!! I get to see my family AND I get to see ADAM FREAKING LAMBERT and it's going to be amazing. I was almost done paying off my credit card... OH WELL. And I had to give up the idea of getting a netbook, but you know. This is better. This will be an experience. I can buy a netbook in a few months (and by then they'll probably be even cheaper).

So, random post is random, but!! I'm excited!! I've never been this excited to go to Detroit before. Heeee. If anyone else will be in Detroit, let me know and maybe we can hook up. I think we'll have to get there early to accommodate my mom, so I'll have some time to kill. Possibly.

For your time, ( this is pretty much the reason I need to go. )

...because I can't go to the Tour. Although. I've been looking at the tour dates. And the only place within reasonable driving distance that's also on a weekend that I could go to is St. Louis or Kansas City. St. Louis is 13 hours and Kansas City is 11, but St Louis is on a Saturday, which means if I had someplace to stop and crash between Austin and St Louis, I wouldn't have to drive it all at once OR miss any work.

So um. Does anyone live between Austin and St Louis like say: Dallas, Denton, Plano, eastern Oklahoma (does anyone live there??), Little Rock, Memphis, Springfield... or anywhere else that comes reasonably between Texas and Missouri, and would be willing to let me crash the night before and the night of the concert? Y/N?

...is there anyone who wants to go to St Louis with me and see Adam Lambert sing David freaking Bowie??

(Stop judging me. HUSHCATS.)

(Sorry guys, I've had too much caffeine and I'm making a CD of Adam's stuff for my mom because she demanded it and she's driving her poor boyfriend crazy playing 'Mad World' over and over again. Forgive my randomness in this post.)

1. So, I didn't realize that my comment notifications for zebras4eva were going to my old email address. It took me two weeks to answer those comments, but if you left me a Dear Zebra comment over there, I did answer! I had to unscreen the comments to reply and so that you could read your replies... so please let me know if you want them re-screened after reading. There's a new post up right here so if you want advice, or just to write me a random Dear Zebra letter, go for it. Comments are screened, anon posting is on, ip tracking is off. And I will actually answer in a timely manner this time!

2. I did so much STUFF this weekend! I saw people. I left my house. It's kind of revolutionary for me. On Friday, I decided that I needed a breakfast taco, so I went to Magnolia with arielchan, puszysty, and mitcharf. It was fun. I feel like I talked too much because I was the only person who knew all three of them, but those are three people I feel like would get along, so you know. I'm a uniter! And stuff. Then arielchan and irish_cocktail came over and we watched Hedwig and Velvet Goldmine. I love those movies so fucking much. They are both in my top 5. Eventually, Mitch came over and brought us booze, and we discussed the acidic properties of Brendon Urie's come. Good times.

3. Then yesterday, I went to a July 4th bbq. I swam, I socialized, I ate a popsicle. Brian and I went to Mighty Fine Burger, which was very yummy, and we watched Hung, which was okay. Then I went to Mitch's with dazifudo and watched Tombstone, which is not in my top 5 but it's definitely in my top 10, and I really think there should be Doc Holliday/Johnny Ringo slash. I mean, COME ON. They speak Latin to each other. They would have the best hate sex ever.

4. So it was a busy weekend, and I got no writing done. Less than a month until stori_telling is due, and I need to get started like a week ago. EEP. I blame Cheeks. He needs to stop distracting me by wanting to write about him instead.

5. And finally, because a lot of people are friending me and a lot of them come from bandom, I feel like ( I need to address the giant pink elephant of stage gay wank. )

I know, tl;dr. I just felt like I needed to say that. I don't want anyone to feel weird or afraid to friend me because of that stuff. There are a few people I've been wanting to friend again that I've been hesitant about because of the wank, but I think, you know, I'm just going to do it. I trust myself a lot more now not to offend them like I did last time, and it would be pretty cool if we could be friends again.

Adam Lambert has secret alien powers of awesomeness to bring people together in the common cause of worshiping his fierceness. TRUFAX.

Yes, I made a mix. Because that's what I do. I made this when I was writing Wizard Not Included and I suppose this could be considered the soundtrack to that, except in my brain, Adam and Brad totally get back together, because YES.

everything zen


( It's gonna be a hard candy Christmas. )

Um, you guys. There's a new Cheeks video. He wants to be famous. Like... green filters, one night in, well, Cheeks famous.


Original Video- More videos at TinyPic


It's funny. And yet. Also? I will be in my bunk. I am not ashamed to admit that.

ETA: HE TOTALLY DOES LOOK LIKE WINONA RYDER OMG.

ETA2: He's totally channeling Blair Waldorf, y/y? "It's disgusting.."

ETA3: NEW LINK, WORKING VIDEO.

So here's the part where I admit that I couldn't write some of the prompts you all gave me. Mainly the crossover ones, which for some reason aren't gelling in my brain right now. But if it makes you feel any better, madame_d asked for Adam/JC porn in return for beta-ing 'Wizard Not Included' and I actually have an IDEA for it, so that will be forthcoming, whenever I actually sit down and write it.

But for now, enjoy these drabbles. Warnings: recreational drug use, alcohol, and my weak impression of Neil Lambert, whose awesomeness cannot be properly replicated.

01. coolwhipdiva asked for: "Kris/Adam, Slip & Slide"
( Aside from maybe going to church with Danny or fucking Joan Rivers, this is pretty much the last thing Adam wants to do. )

02. for wutendeskind: Adam/Kris - the night of Adam's (or Kris's) CD release party.
( He's like the slutty girl from Oklahoma who keeps going back to the guy who's no good for her, because apparently, Kris is just a girl who c'aint say no. )

03. iferion requested: "AI8 - Adam - cheerful like a cheerful thing"
( I hate to tell you this, but you cannot pull off a bikini, Lambert, and I seriously doubt your ability to convincingly show Western wear. )

04. _lisalisa_ asked: "Does a conversation between Adam and Neil count?" And I decided that it did.
( Hey, you big gay freak, it's me. Neil. Your awesome and insanely intelligent brother. )

05. leobrat requested: "Something JC/Chris-ish? Maybe? Set circa 2009?"
( Coffee is for closers. )

06. brighton_girl requested: "JuC...maybe a tease of your wedding planner or some happy/sappy stuff."
( Seekrit preview of Wedding AU fic. JC really would make an awesome cake artist. )

07. moonmelody requested: "Adam/Kris, shopping?"
( Plaid is officially banned. )

08. runzu requested: "Justin/Britney - Getting back to together (FO REALZ) 09"
( It's a brave new world, and Bitsy has to follow the rules. )

1. Work is bad today. I can't pay someone because she was never appointed to work in the first place, which is my boss's fault, but of course Boss is out sick because she had surgery last Friday, so I'm screwed. I hope this girl doesn't REALLY need her $75, because she totally isn't getting it.

2. PLUS, I hate when I don't know how to do something, and the person who DOES know how to do it is jerking me around instead of just getting shit done. So fucking annoying.

3. I found out my best friend from the 7th grade until pretty much I moved to Texas and we lost touch just had a baby. o.0

4. Al Franken won his senate seat, finally!! Which means that the Democrats have a super-majority. Except not really, because it's doubtful Ted Kennedy will ever return to vote in the senate, and that other guy, the 90-year-old dude, is probably not going back, either. Senators HAVE to be elected, so it might be a long while before we have new ones from Massachusetts and wherever that other old dude is from. Sigh.

5. Still, what is UP with no movement on DADT and DOMA? I know there's a lot of stuff going on with the collapse of the global economy and the elections in Iran and trying to push through health care reform and all that, but STILL. This is getting ridiculous.

6. One of the stories on This American Life this week was about Lindy England, the reservist from the Abu Ghraib torture pictures. It was so interesting, because this is a woman who took the fall for basically the entirety of Bush's torture regime, even though her role in the scandal was tiny and the entire picture debacle was basically a red herring to distract the world from what was actually going on in Abu Ghraib--torture so horrible it sometimes ended in death. ( That's not to make light of humiliation tactics and how wrong those are, but when you consider that Lindy and her fellow reservists were the only people ever punished for the torture regime, it's kind of insane. )

7. Today, if I have time this afternoon, I'm going to go through all my fic and add warnings. I use warnings in communities, but not on my actual journal, and that's not good. People coming from rec links will never see those warnings. So yeah, need to do that. But--question. I think the thing I will need to warn for the most is like... depictions of mental illness. Is there some standard warning for that? I can't even think of how to word it.

8. Saw Britney's new video for 'Radar.' I am kind of EH about it. On the one hand, she looks AMAZING. On the other hand, it's pretty boring. It's no 'If U Seek Amy.' In fact, let's just pause a moment to remember how amazing that video is:



9. Adam continues to delight me. I wish I could go to the tour. *sadface* Notice that we haven't heard from HiFi at all this week? I WONDER WHY.

10. SYTYCD tonight. It better not suck again.

Well, I'm stuck at the front desk bored out of my mind because the receptionist went home sick. So! I will take drabble requests. AI8 or popslash. Give me a pairing and a prompt, and I will write you something (hopefully) fabulous.

In other unrelated topics, how did the weekend go for y'all? I pulled my glut again (pain in the ass, literally, ugh) but worse this time. On the bright side, mitcharf took me to Magnolia to make me feel better, although I suspect it was really so he could gossip about all his exploits in Attempting to Be Brian Kinney. Still, free gingerbread pancakes = A++.

Okay, give me prompts! I am so ready.

how to be a slut playa

1. No shame in this dancerie! We all have needs. Whether you're satisfying them yourself or getting help from a willing party, it's natural. Shame isn't natural, it's manufactured by a society created by puritans, and therefor, bullshit.

2. No regets. This covers all manner of sins, such as: a) always use protection even if it "feels better" without b) choose your partners carefully, ie no one who has the power to hurt you emotionally, no one is only pretty when you're drunk, no one who YOU have the power to hurt, and c) if it sucks, don't just keep going because you're desperate, and certainly do not go back for seconds! Here's a clue: if you have to be drunk/high to enjoy it, then it's not good enough, and you deserve better.

3. Even playas gotta have standards.

4. Play for the right reasons (ie because you want to and it's fun). No revenge fucking, no pity fucking, no desperation fucking. That sort of deal does not encompass the playa attitude, and leads to drama. and the fifth rule of how to be a playa is...

5. NO DRAMA. Learn from the wisdom of missy. Casual slutting it up doesn't have to lead to drama, if you follow the rest of the rules. as long as everyone is on board and you're all in it for the fun, being a playa is a perfectly acceptable and enjoyable lifestyle choice.

( how to be a playa: the musical guide )

I just need to say, a whole muscle relaxer >>>> half. High now. For reals.

Everyone should watch this please:



Kris Allen is a sassy bitch. I really heart him.

Now, internet, please stop embarrassing me by proxy by replying to certain Internet Quasi-Famous People on twitter with your childhood trauma and/or desire for them to kiss and make up with ex-boyfriends. I understand the desire, BELIVE ME I DO, but the 4th wall is there for a reason, and that is so that I can keep writing about these people without feeling guilty and creepy about it.

Thank you. Love, Me.

PS - Someone put drugs in my drugs, for real this time. Seriously! I never knew a whole pill could make me feel so fuuuuucked. I've always just taken half but my shoulder was like DYING and giving me a headache and like even my teeth hurt omg. Now I still have a headache but it doesn't matter as less. Time for passing out now, yes.

It's not a very shiny Friday :( Here's a list.

1. So, I pulled my ass muscle last Saturday, and I've been resting it for the last few days. I went to the gym yesterday and it was fine. But of course, now my shoulder is killing me. On the other hand... I'm down to 114 lbs now. Matt asked me how I'm going to STOP losing weight when I reach my goal, what with the meds and all, and I kind of realized I have no idea. If my shoulder weren't so fucked, I'd say that I could switch from cardio stuff to weights. But... well. I guess I will cross that bridge when I get there.

2. In addition, I think I have endometriosis. I have really good reasons for thinking this, but it's kind of too gross to go into in a public post. I'm calling some doctors my friends recommended this afternoon. There's not much they can do except like, put me on birth control. It's not more painful than my periods have always been, but it's definitely gross and I should probably make sure I'm not dying.

3. Tomorrow, I am going with soylahtayplease to a screening of Serenity and Dr Horrible. I'm so excited!! Even though I am poor, I am going to get something good to eat so I will have strength to kick mitcharf's ass at racquetball afterwards. This will be my second time seeing Dr Horrible on the big screen, and seriously, it never gets old. The hammer is my penis. I'm just saying.

4. I need to work on my Kris-has-amnesia fic for stori_telling. I need to START it actually. July is going to be so crazy with people coming here and me going to Chicago, and it feels like it's going to be a long story. Long for me. Which means like 20,000 words. You guys, I have written so many 20k+ stories, it's kind of ridiculous. Like, did that MPREG really need to be so long? (Well, yes. Whatever, I love that fic.) Or the 7-11 AU. That one is ridiculous!

5. And finally, I have a lot of new people on my flist. HI NEW PEOPLE!! Please feel free to introduce yourselves to me, or say hi back, or ask me questions because I'm sure there's a LOT you don't know about me aside from the thing about Adam Lambert. I've been thinking about doing a new introduction post because my userinfo is kind of... weird and misleading, and I wrote it like 5 years ago. So if there's anything you want to know, just ask. I've been told I can be intimidating, but honestly, I'm usually very nice. And now that I'm on drugs, I'm a lot less... argumentative. Or maybe capable of keeping my more offensive opinions to myself :) Let's do this! I like to know the people on my flist. (Weird, right? What can I say...)

6. And for real finally... I have to admit, I'm pretty sad about Michael Jackson. He was the soundtrack to my childhood. My sister is 8 years older than me, and she was prime MJ age. I remember her saying she was going to marry him some day. A few years ago, I went with jacksonite to the Michael Jackson Sing Along at the Alamo Drafthouse here in Austin. They showed all his videos, even the ones that were like 20 minutes long. And he was just an incredible musician and performer. I remember reading about when he was writing Billie Jean, the label wanted him to cut that famous opening section because they thought it was taking too long to get to the singing. And Michael wouldn't back down; he kept the opening and it's one of the most famous and recognizable openings of any pop song. When I was a kid, whenever a new Michael or Janet video would come out, I'd show up at the dance studio and we'd all be trying to do the choreography in the lobby before class. JC said on E! that Michael Jackson provided the soundtrack to our lives, and I think that's true. Tonight, I would like to watch MJ videos and get wasted in his honor. (Probably I will just take a muscle relaxer and crash though. Fucking shoulder.)

THERE, now I am done.

It's been almost a week since HiFi/Wilshire decided to be like, "Surprise! We're going to release Adam Lambert's old demo tracks and recording sessions without telling him. Won't that be fun?" And now that we know that some of those tracks are actually things Adam wrote with Pitman etc, we have a better idea of what the situation actually is. There are a lot of people freaking out over at ontd_ai over this, and while it's frustrating, sure, it's really not going to hurt Adam very much.

During the whole JC-leaving-JIVE thing, I learned a lot about the music industry and legally how all that works. So let me just put forth a few assumptions we can make based on industry standards about the whole Demogate Dealie:

1) Yes, it's legal. When a performer records a track on a label's dime, the label owns the master recordings and can do whatever they want with them. They own the publishing and distribution rights to those recordings. They can give the songs to other people to record; they can release the songs; they can shelve the songs. The song writer could go ahead and re-record somewhere else and essentially create new master recordings, but the original label would still own the original masters with the original production.

2) Adam may get royalties from song writing credits, but it's an incredibly small sum. I want to say that Idolator estimates that for every $.99 iTunes download, the songwriter gets $.01. Performers with royalty rights may get even less than that if they don't have writing credits, and performers who aren't under contract with the distributor/label? No. So for example, with 'Want' which he didn't write, and recorded as a pay-for-voice thing, he's already been paid for that, and he won't get royalties. Which is probably why they chose that as the single, ding ding ding. They get to keep more of their money that way, and if RCA does decide to attempt to block the full album release, they'll at least have made something off the single without having to give Adam a damn thing.

3) Being such a small label without a major distributor, it's doubtful this album will ever be released in hard copy. iTunes, sure. But without promotion from Adam, it doesn't have a chance in hell of posting numbers. They should rush it if they want it to sell anything, because the longer they give Adam to keep making statements, the less people will buy it. (Especially since we've already had most of those songs for a few months now.)

4) The singles won't chart on Billboard without radio play. To chart from iTunes sales alone, the single would have to sell a LOT of iTunes copies. It would have to be in the top ten of iTunes overall music chart in a sustained way for the entire week to make the Billboard chart. Radio play factors in hugely to single charting. And no radio station is going to touch a single that hasn't been pushed hard by a major label or artist. It's very hard to get radio stations to play your song. Just ask JC Chasez.

5) In conclusion: this is unfortunate, but I predict that within two weeks it will blow over entirely, if not sooner what with all the celebrity and music news happening just this week. (*sadface*) And at the very least, now everyone who gives a shit about this stuff knows that Adam did not write that crapfest, 'Want,' and if they hear his other stuff like 'Pop Goes the Camera,' that won't actually be a tragedy. I mean, it's better than 'Want.' (And 'No Boundaries.' Sorry Kris.)

The end. Back to watching MJ vids on youtube.

Everyone on my flist is talking about this. And I haven't read any of the original posts and I don't have any idea how all this started, but reading y'alls posts has made me think a little bit about my own fic and warnings and such. It's probably easier in popslash, or safer in some ways, because we simply don't have that many writers anymore, and headers/warnings were never really standard to begin with. I mean, for Make the Yuletide Gay and DWNOGA before it, all you knew before clicking a link were the characters involved.

(And sometimes, that was a lie, too. Ahem, the story I received my first year.)

( Blah blah blah, warnings and triggers and starbucks, oh my. )

It's so weird that I feel like I have nothing to say. Instead, I think I will make a few confessions:

1. I totally googled "kris allen mount magazine" to see if I could find pictures of Kris at the monument I built on the high point in Arkansas when I was in AmeriCorps. ( See, here I am building the monument. ) And since I lived in Arkansas for six weeks, I know there is fuck all to do there, and I figured, maybe Kris had been to the monument. I'm so lame, omg. SO LAME.

2. Other boring places I have lived: Tallulah Falls, Georgia; Anniston, Alabama (most polluted city per capita in the WORLD, no lie); Decatur, Mississippi. Decatur, omg. Firstly, it was a dry county, and it was against Americorps regulations to transport alcohol in our government vehicle, so we couldn't even drive to the next county to buy booze. I could literally walk the entire town in 45 minutes. There was nothing there. NOTHING.

3. That last thing wasn't really a confession. Hmm, okay. Actual confession: I have considered trying to catch the Idols Live tour in Boston or Connecticut or Detroit because I'm going to miss the Dallas date, since I will be flying to Chicago that day. I don't think it's actually possible, financially or logistically, but OMG I WANT TO GO. I want to see Kris perform 'Hey Jude' and Adam perform 'Starlight' and David Bowie!

4. I am so over JC. I know what you're thinking. "Yeah, right, that's what she always says." This time, I mean it! I'm over him. Just as suddenly as I stopped caring about J2, popslash is like completely uninteresting to me. All I want to do is read Idol fic. I didn't even read any Dragon stories, and I only feel a tiny bit guilty about it.

5. There is this homeless guy who rides my bus home sometimes and he smells SO BAD. And I feel guilty for thinking that and for like, moving as far away from him as possible and wishing he'd take a different bus, but omg, he smells.

6. I'm afraid to walk in front of the Tower now that handguns and concealed weapons are allowed on campus :/

7. I think I am disturbingly obsessed with Cheeks. And even more disturbingly invested in the idea of Bradam getting back together. ( But I mean, can you blame me?? )

Okay, here are the pictures you guys asked for last night. Because I am lazy, I am not going to pretend that I remember or am willing to go back and check who all asked for what. I think I got them all though.

( Lots of the cat. And books. And one of me looking about 14. )

Anything else you want pictures of? I'm about to go to Castle Greybeard to check on the Other Cat, so I will happily take pictures of someone else's house. HA.

So I'm doing this very annoying thing, wherein I have to create 100-word bios for the professors in my department. And I'm sure it's completely useless and no one will ever look at these, but whatever. I have to do it. Distract me. Here's a meme, especially for all the new people on my flist who have no idea what they've gotten themselves into.

ASK ME ANYTHING
Ask me anything you want. Anonymous comments will be turned on for the shy folks. It can be as simple as "Where do you live" (for people who didn't bother to read my userinfo) or as complicated as "why are you such a bitch, yo?" Anything you want to know, and I will answer honestly. IP tracking is OFF. Go for it. I won't even know who you are.

You comment must be in the form of a question, or like Alex Trebek, my favorite Canadian, I won't be able to accept it and I will be totally smug about it, too.

DO IT. SAVE ME FROM THE BIOS OMG.

So, I only have my kind of shitty phone camera, but I'm bored. Tell me shit to take pictures of in my apartment etc, and I will do my best to comply.

DO IT.

Wizard Not Included

Fandom: American Idol RPF
Pairing: Adam/Brad, Adam/Kris
Rating: Adult
Comments: With many thanks to madame_d, who made this a million times better, and to musicboxgirl and llamabitchyo for telling me it doesn't suck.

Warnings: Recreational drug use.

Summary: Adam felt so weird and crazy that it couldn't be anything but full-on, true and for serious love. He was done. He was a Boyz II Men song. He was a Julia Roberts movie.

( Wizard Not Included, or Zen and the Art of Winning American Idol, through the looking glass and down the rabbit hole he goes. )